i'm feeling very pissed and troubled and just 'SUCKY' right now..

i've been rather fed up with school life...

nothing seems to be going right for me..

it's not just today..it's been a few days..

maybe i'm pms-ing..

maybe i'm in the midst of receiving my CT results..

maybe im just tired for everything..

it's getting really really tired to have things done//to socialise//to meet up to everyone's expectations...

EXPECTATIONS

our purpose in life is not to fall short of people's expectations. instead, it is not to fall short of God's expectations for us.it's really stressed to keep ensuring that one has to constantly be on par with the rest..or just have to watch one's back..

honestly, i've not done well this time round..come to think of it..people take exams for the sake of fame and glory..what has meritocracy done to us??

i cant blame others but only me, myself and i..and i know ultimately that after one's failure, one has to realise one's mistakes and not repeat again..it sounds cliche though..we just need to put in our best effort and the rest is up to God to decide.

outdo,outwit,outsmart??

i guess i was too pressurised [not by parents but by myself] until i have made a self-fulfilling prophecy.

why aren't all of us children of God to begin with??

why must we sin?? why must people sin??

why are they like THAT??!!

im ALWAYS bad at maintaining friendships..i know..

and with all these piling up...mr hussein is leaving us..

no wonder my left eye keeps twitching nonstop the whole of yesterday and today..i'm really really UPSET//although he's not a qualified teacher and a churned-out product from NIE, i can assure you that he knows his work and is able to put across the idea to the whole class easily..he's helped me understand those economic jargons..he makes me LOVE econs..wanqing says that im infatuated with him..LOL..i guess so..i really don't want LCC to come and teach us again!!

I WANT HUSSEIN!!!!!!! =[

why nj doesn't celebrate youth day?? we're still youths!! we don't celebrate children's day and now..no more youth day..even the primary school children have a day off for youth day too..i was listening to my sis droning on and on about crescent's youth day celebrations..about how the teachers from every department come out with short skits and performances just to make the students laugh..and compare to nj..we're slogging our guts away..attending lectures and tutorials..

You can complain because roses have thorns or you can rejoice because thorns have roses - Ziggy

Some cause happiness wherever they go; others whenever they go - Oscar Wilde

Our character is what we do when we think no one is looking - H.Jackson

Birds sing after a storm ; why shouldn't people feel as free to delight in whatever sunlight remains to them? - Rose Kennedy

Running away will never make you free - K.Loggins

Even if you're on the right track, you'll get run over if you just sit there - A.Godfrey

Don't expect the world to look bright if you habitually and perpetually wear grey-brown glasses - Elliot

If life kicks you in the pants, you must get up, dust yourself off and kick it right back - Vanessa M

In the presence of adversity, there are those that use crutches and others who grow wings. Which one are you? - Renee Engdahl

i always like to read non-fiction books..went to borrow books from the library today..and accidentally found two interesting books

one was named BOYCOTT. the book mentioned that the US athletes had to forgo the 1980 Olympic Games held at Moscow due to politics issues..US was still having Cold War with Russia at that point in time and by going to Moscow to take part in the Games would mean that US was giving in..hence many athletes were asked to pay a price that couldn't be repaid..

and this leads us to nj GP question "Does sports involve politics?"

next up, it's 100 ways to motivate others. it's actually for me, not much for others..gotta motivate myself for everything that im doing..that's how i always push myself on to jump past hurdle after hurdle for 17 years..

i've a few inspirational books[all in chinese] =D

these days, i've been reconsidering my options for my future career..i'm quite certain that i'll be in the social field but as to specifically what i want to be..i'm still open to choices..

life is not just about making more and more money and living for fame and glory/

stop ruining people's lives; it seems that you take much pleasure in seeing people around you suffer..this makes no sense unless you're heartless..and stop going after fame and glory..stop thinking that you're always right..and stop putting words into my mouth..im NOT your DOG.

bleah..

signing off

pissed ahma =/